Sarah Still Says

Call Me

2006-05-27T09:49:00.000-07:00

Long time no calls. Call me.
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Sarah Vs. Sarah

2006-05-27T05:50:00.000-07:00

Okay after the Sandmonkey's post in his series of the Only in Egypt posts and a lot of people's queries in the blogsphere, I decided to tell the famous story..

I started the SarahYehia blog early January, 2005 and every once and a while popped unwanted visitors with their cheesy comments and insults which I didn't care to even reply sometimes until some time my blog was hacked into and I lost my password, this person took control of my blog for a while and the Charaid continued for a while until a friend helped me get it back..
During the period of losing my blog I started another one and there came the SarahEid Blog which after a while was hacked into again and once again I WAS NOT THE PERSON TELLING THE STORIES.

So, I decided as I have access to my old blog to return to it once again..
And here I am still saying and this person whoever he/she is still lurking around some where with the SarahEid blog every once and a while publishing a silly post asking people to call me where I have no idea where he/she acquired my number or sometimes calling names..I do not care.. Being Sarah for him is obviously a Kick..

And that is it, that's the famous story.. No Ex bitter boyfriend no shady agency like the many things said.. But I am here saying and will always say whether in Sarah Yehia's or Sarah Eid's or any other place..
What does not kill me makes me stronger

Peace people and have a nice weekend..

Weekend Busted..

2006-05-26T06:05:00.001-07:00

Some plans for the weekend was at order I was going to Alex. for a change of scenery but things did not work out. Some things at work and home did not make it possible to go ahead with the plan. But man I needed to go so much but any way I guess I have to make it late better than never as the famous quote says.

However I intend to badge out during my weekend as this was by far the loudest week I have ever had in while..

It's alright, don't be afraid don't hesitate now
Feels right, let's take it now don't wait for later
Tonight, and if it feels right just let it go
And if it's alright you got to let it flow
If I'm wrong don't want to know
If I'm right just let it show
It's crazy, so crazy it just might be
I only care about today, tomorrow is too far away
Let's take it, and run run away with me
It feels so nice...
Crossing all the lines, taking any chance
Doing what we need to feel alive
Yeah it feels so right...
Come and do it now, we got to scream, scream all night

It’s Alright – Ricky Martin

Dress up like Halloween and ghouls will try to get into your pants

2006-05-24T04:57:00.000-07:00

If you are silent you are taken for weak, if you are angry you are taken for impolite and impatinet.

I think you should go ahead and show what you really are made of and let things roll your way the way they will..

The show must go on anyway you might as well open the curtains and spill.

Holier than thou attitude.. FUCK IT BIG TIME

2006-05-20T22:23:00.000-07:00

Like always Metalica said it best..

The crap rolls out your mouth again
haven't changed, your brain is still gelatin
little whispers circle around your head
why don't you worry about yourself instead

who are you? Where ya been? Where ya from?
gossip burning on the tip of your tongue
you lie so much you believe yourself
judge not lest ye be judged yourself

holier than thou
you are holier than thou
you are, you know not

before you judge me take a look at you
didn't you find something better to do
point the finger, slow to understand
arrogance and ignorance go hand in hand

it's not who you are it's who you know
others lives are the basis of your own
burn your bridges build them back with wealth
judge not lest ye be judged yourself

holier than thou, you are
holier than thou , you are
you know not
ya who the hell are you?
holier than thou
you are holier than thou
you are, you know not

CSI NY meets CSI MIAMI

2006-05-20T08:04:00.000-07:00

Well I guess we got it covered that me being a CSI Fan.. I have watched this past week an episode where CSI Miami meets CSI NY. I back in the past have watched something like that but it was with CSI and CSI Miami. However this time is it was different as I have not seen CSI NY yet. I got the impression that it is the darkest CSI ever. I guess the atmosphere of the big cities specially New York City being known of the morbid atmosphere.

However I have to say this.. Horatio Caine is one hell of a character taking about security and promises. There is this line where he promised a young girl that he will catch the killer of her family and the next time she sees him she will know that she is safe..

The episode was rapped up with him standing in the cemetery and the girl face light up when she saw him.

Man a guy like that really knows how to care!

Lucky Number Slevin Wrong Time. Wrong Place. Wrong Number.

2006-05-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I saw Lucky number Slevin and I was like wow. Being a star packed movie I expected it to be a disappointment but it was not. Staring Josh Hartnet, Morgan Freeman, Bruce Willis, Lucy Liu, Ben Kingsley, and Stanely Tucci. The film was bound to be a hit, with amazing directing and great plot. Despite a reasonably confusing series of opening events, Slevin is essentially a straight forward, neat black comedy of errors (mistaken identity for one) with a fairly weird title.The dialogue is at times razor sharp and the action is well shot. It literally takes you on a trip that blows you away in the end. I totally liked it. Wouldn't get into the details so I wouldn't ruin it for you guys. But it is a must see movie.. Trust me.

Well being down Town me and my friends passed by my favorite hang out anywhere Cilantro, had an amazing cup of coffee, smoked a bit and headed home after a tiresome but enjoyable outing. Man I did enjoyed my day..

Good Movie, Good Company, Good Coffee.

ورجعت ريما لعادتها القديمة

2006-05-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

Okay I admit it lately I was a bit blue and feeling awfully bad about a lot of things. Fine, may be more than a bit.

However, something really made me stop and think; I got a phone call yesterday informing me about a friend passing away. He was young; 27 or 28 pretty upbeat guy. He managed to find a lot of good things in the hardships along his way and let’s face it they were many. Yes, he dead. He simply went to bed and didn’t wake up again just like that. His death did make me think. Yes I have not seen him in a while but somehow the news shocked the hell out of me and thought how worthless things are.

We live regretting, cursing, mumbling or whatever but yet we live. We live to see another day. This is something we should be glad about. I have decided to try to drop my black glasses and look the hell around. I would start talking in this place of mine again I mean real talk. May be just may be this is what kept some balance in my life before.

Rest In Peace A. Surely you will be missed.

Sounds familiar??

2006-05-14T12:36:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Simple Plan - Welcome to my life

Much Said about Nothing

2006-05-10T12:49:00.000-07:00

Well today and yesterday were quiet impossible, I know that you are not advised to speak when you are angry or take decisions in your current state of mind but it is okay.
My current state of mind actually did not tell me anything that I did not already know. LOL. I am a weird human being now I know it.. I think the things that has passed on me in the past like I don’t know 12 or 15 months have left me dried out.. Out of what exactly?? A lot of things.. Patience, stamina, compassion, forget ness, among other things that is at mind but not at my fingers tips right now.

However, the rest of the herd is not less weirder as well taking about giving to a person exactly what they want and they spend a respectable amount of time trying to convince you that this is not it and on the first chance bam remorse out of the blue starts to kick in.
Now I am tired, I am dead tired of a lot of things, Stupidity, lying, hypocrisy, and last but not least of me.. I need a break and I need to change that me as fast as possible to be able to function again.

Let’s see how things will be..

Free?? Think Again

2006-05-08T10:06:00.000-07:00

I guess by now everyone heard the news..
Help Make a difference For once in our lives, believe in our ability in making a change.. Break the golden rule of "Divide and Conquer"
Let's Say it all together..May be saying it out loud will help making it true

Another Week Ends..

2006-05-07T20:57:00.000-07:00

Okay Another Sunday.. I had some trouble sleeping yesterday in spite the fact that I was super tired yet sleep seemed far from being here. I am sleepless again for those of you who do not know I suffered from trouble sleeping a while ago but somehow it managed to slip back to my daily routine. The problem is I am getting used to it :/ Okay is this bad or good? I do not know.

I had some catching up with a freind of mine that I have not talked to in a while.. but somehow things seem out of place for me and I do not have the slightest clue why..

I am just hoping that I shake this feeling that I have been having lately which is totally not good and I do not prefer to share it right now.. May be later..
I have to get ready.. Got a busy week ahead of me and tons of things to be done..
Boy here we go One Week Ends, Another Begins..

Why Clorox Is Popular Among Women??

2006-05-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

Okay I was heading home after a long day at work, someone said that taking the subway sounds like a good idea but it was not.. It was crowded and it smelled but that is not the point.
On my way home I was standing there listening to two girls talking and here is how it went:

Girl 1: Hey my hand smells like shit, Smell that.. *Putting her hands near the other girl's nose*
Girl 2: Ooof what is that?
Girl 1: It is Clorox we use it home to clean..
Girl 2: It smells like men's semen..
Girl 1: Well I guess that is the only good reminder you get from it..
*Both grins like stupid asses..*

I was like OMG, both looked 19 to 2o something college girls, wouldn't even wonder how the hell did they know how it smells not to mention talking about it so casually in the subway with their damn voices so loud..

WTF ??? I have nothing more to say

L O N G I N G ..

2006-05-03T03:57:00.000-07:00

"Days go by some of us pass unnoticed yet thoughts never die in sensible thoughts".. Remember that intro from the radio show that was presented on Radio Cairo..
I don't know why it has been calibrating with my feeling lately yet my thoughts are far of being described as sensible.. Frankly speaking I don't know what is worse that it does or that I do not give a shit about it.. Weird enough I have been having this longing to weird stupid things that have passed and I am pretty sure that it will not cross my way again or at least I will not allow it to..

But I miss it though The peacefulness and calmness, The vagueness and inclarity of the view.. The warm and fuzzy protected feeling inside and how you feel secured and want to just freeze the moment cause you know that how good you feel inside can never last.. It is TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.. Sometimes all this just fills your mind on account of small and tiny triggers and boom out of nowhere it occupies your entire existence and you are left feeling utterly sad and blue..

Fuck it I miss it and there is nothing I can do about it..I just hope that it will go away..

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me
GoodBye My Lover - James Blunt

Blame It On The 2a3maal Man

2006-04-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

Life is shitty sometimes, we all know that it is either cause you screw up, somebody else screwed up, or just things did not work it..
Yes, it is a mess but it is what we make out of it.
Lately someone I know who is 28 years old really started to believe that her life is not what she wanted coz someone had put some sort of a spell on her. It was sad.. Really she believed that her misfortunes and let's face it she has got quiet a few were due to the fact that someone had put a spell on her *3amelaha 3amel* which was totally lame..
I thought that this is some sort of a denial phase that will pass but it only got worse.. She is now starting to hit some Shiekhs who can solve her problems here is when I was like *WTF???*
I started talking to her trying to convince her that it was a bunch of bullshit and her life's fortunes and misfortunes are solely based on how she makes her choices in life..
But she looked at me as I was insane and just said that I do not have to go with her..
I was shocked, yeah I have passed through some phase in my life when I thought that my mess was caused by some other people but I came to my senses and knew that others can be hell but only cause some how I made a choice of allowing them to be..

I am totally sad about this.. Have we reached the phase of believing that someone had put a spell on the leg of a cross-eyed ant and that is why my life is shitty??

We should stop blaming them and start looking at ourselves??
May be then we can know what really is wrong

I called on Death But Death Did Not Call On Me

2006-04-26T22:29:00.000-07:00

A DEATH-BLOW is a life-blow to some
Who, till they died, did not alive become;
Who, had they lived, had died, but when
They died, vitality begun.

DEATH is a dialogue between
The spirit and the dust.
“Dissolve,” says Death. The Spirit, “Sir,
I have another trust.”
Death doubts it, argues from the ground.
The Spirit turns away,
Just laying off, for evidence,
An overcoat of clay.

WHILE I was fearing it, it came,
But came with less of fear,
Because that fearing it so long
Had almost made it dear.
There is a fitting a dismay,
A fitting a despair.
It is harder knowing it is due,
Than knowing it is here.
The trying on the utmost,
The morning it is new,
Is terribler than wearing it.

Above are selections of my favourite poems of Emily Dickinson, I Leave you with this..
"A word is dead when it is said, some say, I say it just begins to live that day."

Shame

2006-04-25T23:23:00.000-07:00

What happened in Sinai is a real shame.. May all the victims Rest In Peace..

What a way to celebrate Sinai Liberation Day..

WARNING .. Seriously lame post follows

2006-04-24T23:08:00.000-07:00

Well I have a confession to make I love CSI, it has been my favorite show ever since I first saw it. Starting with CSI and then CSI Miami and I seriously fell in love with the show don't ask me.. Was it my love for mystery since I was a kid or my love for thrillers I do not know.. I love CSI and now One TV is showing them parallel on Mondays CSI and on Fridays CSI Miami..

I love watching team work collaborates with many things may be it is the way they co-operate with each other that is only fictional and can never really be except in make believe T.V...

Any way the winners in Sarah's Favourite list are..

Horatio Caine

Nick stokes

Down Town, Yakobian Building & a trip down memory lane..

2006-04-24T14:55:00.001-07:00

Yesterday being a Sunday which makes it my weekly day off meaning I had some places to go where in place. Two days ago I bought Yakobian Building as I itchly wanted to read it with the big publicity that accompanied it and being transformed into a movie this summer. I like it very much as the writer is taking us down memory lane with real places in life you can actually track, I give him a thumb up for his style. To tell you the truth he had some balls to write it and the fact that this was the nineth edition really impressed me. People are tired of bullshit and really would like to hear about the real things that everybody knows are happening and nobody wants to talk about it.

With this kind of mood I felt weird walking down town yesterday remembering my collage days and how when things were not than fun at collage or boredom was at order I would arrange a field trip going for lunch and then heading to the movies and watching whatever English movie is showing but probably thrillers and actions would be my favorite choice, my choice was always down town. I remembered and some old faint smile curled on my face. Back when I was a collage student and didn't have a clue how life would be. It was nice having something in life unknown. At this very moment I felt REALLY OLD..

2006-04-22T13:39:00.000-07:00

My latest present..

Thanks Mr. G..

Sum up of the week Extremely Boring

2006-04-22T13:15:00.000-07:00

Once again my blog was closed it has become a habit of mine I am sure I have confused the hell out of people trying to keep track of the where about of my blog.. if such people exist. Someone out there is pretty pissed of what I am saying in spite of being nonsense that is no good to anyone but me.. But hey a lot of people have issues present company included big time…

Okay.. things where pretty hectic in the past couple of weeks and I am just trying to gather the pieces and make something out of what happened. I was accused of being untruthful and withholding the truth which is a kind of sugar coated way of saying that I am a lying sack and full of it. Yeah I may sometimes lie or not tell the entire truth or say something’s and leave portions out of it for my own good but that necessarily does not make me a lair. I know that being a cheap bitch is a lousy habit and I have to quit it but we all have our dark side and if you are seeking someone who is perfect or with wings and an ora around his head then you have definitely come to the wrong place.

Another thing that I have to stop is assuming that people care and the bitter truth is they don’t, they only care if things went down their way which is another way they could boost their egos, once again being right. But if you dared and just went the wrong direction you’re labeled a puppet or a toy in the hands of others.

I do not know.. I am clueless, hesitant, and having the most cold feet anyone had during his entire life.. I don’t know what the hell I am going to do..

I was having the unhealthiest thoughts of abandoning and disappearance that can not serve me any good and it scares the hell out of me. I guess my blog should be my only listener from now on and may be it wouldn’t label me like most people did..

UPDATE

2006-03-21T07:36:00.000-08:00

My new blog is http://saraheid.blogspot.com